Am Just Not That Into You

This post is just simply for a guy. If you are reading this, You can comment as much as u like. There's no one to stop you. In fact, I love reading your comment. Because it reminds me how fucking you piss me off and how much I don't like you. Owh! It's not call 'don't like', It's suppose to be HATE! Mr Brian Sim Mong Huat. If your reading this. Congratulation. This is my blog, my wall!

You came to my place asking for a place to stay. Well, the reason that you use is just to spend some fucking time with me and celebrate my birthday. Well, sad to say, You just SCREWED my life! And thank you so much for that! I gave u a place to stay and accompany you to all the places that you wanna go. Well, what do I get? High Blood Pressure? owh, and not to mention, i really enjoy fucking you! Thanks for that. Other than that, well, umm... not much nice things and happy memories that u left behind in my SCREWED UP LIFE. This is my house, my place, my rules. NOT yours. Let me mention again!! NOT YOURS! GET IT??

First of all, I hate u command me to do things. Maybe you don't feel like forcing me, well... IT FUCKING IS! This is what i hate da most. You also enjoy teasing me. Hey asshole! Everyone has their limit, it's not an everyday routine that I am in a good mood or Open Season for you. i seriously dislike when people comment this and that. Hey, I am not stupid for your info. Your are. You're brainless enough not knowing that I am hot tempered and can slap you anytime I want. I tried to control, but noooooooo... U wanted it so badly. Well, I finally allow my emotion to give u a taste of what's like. Nice right?! And I love it!

Not only that, your childishness is one of the things that i couldn't stand! You think your so rich? renting a car and I drive up to Melacca? Finding a ATM machine also want me ask people? Fuck u la. You want to go or me want to go? U wanted to go and yet I have to wake you up early in da morning?? Please la boy! X pandai apa itu u mau buat la sendiri? Janganlah orang yang paksa. Want to rent a car also want me ask. When i ask why you can't ask yourself, Your answer is the one thing that trigger my anger. " Are you paying or I am the one paying?" That fucking phrase really show your 'Fucking-lity' My god!! 19 year old guy can't even ask for something he wants?? Still need me to ask? Sound so much like I am your dad and I wanted to go Melacca so much. Damn you la~

Wasting my time is fine. What you promise u never do. U said all things You pay. In the end, accompany u, I also have to pay some money. Yala, U pay more i agree, but am seriously broke ok? Am not like u so fucking reach with 10k in your bank account. Am not a person who sees your money and bring you go 'kai kai'. Want to to drive around am fine. Never complaint me for driving fast. If your so good, U drive la. No one to stop you! You really loves to complain do you? What an ungrateful person you are. Am sure when u finish you courses in Russia, you will regret! Your church never teach you what is the meaning of 'Grateful" kah? What a sad scenario. Other than that, your church also never teach what is 10 commandment de meh? 不可妄称耶和华你的神。 Never learn kah? And yet what you wrote on my wall? " He is just not in da mood ~ May God bless him and help him ~ Only God can help him ... Hope God can lower his temper and calm him down~ Amen!" You call this a prayer? Fuck You!!
Although I seldom attend church doesn't mean I don't know what is right and wrong!

Well, whats console me is after i hit you, I felt nice inside. I like to see you shout but you didn't. That's too bad. No matter how good your lips in argueing, my fist can always solve your ITCHY lips who like to tease people. And I thank you for proving myself worthy to hate you! Mr Brian Sim Mong Huat

Last but not least. Thank you so much for SCREWING MY LIFE and the worst birthday celebration from you ever! First time is already so bad. I can't imagine the next time. Please get lost, SCREW ME NO MORE! I beg for your mercy!

Well, 2 more days will be d last day here. At first I do expect for your arrival, but I was wrong. It is the worst ever! Thank you! I don't even enjoy a single time with you! I just wanna say! I FUCKING HATE YOU!

It's under my skin!!

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real


there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem


to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling confusing what is real

Am breaking da habit!!!

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again

You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/l/linkin-park-lyrics/breaking-the-habit-lyrics.html ]
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

A Self Claim United Nation - Malaysia

Whats more upsetting to see comparing to the handicapped people around us is the handicap of our nation. Malaysia named itself as a place like no other. Different races living together in a total landmass of 329,847 square kilometers (127,350 sq mi). Consist of 13 states. Separated by a vast South China Sea. Dividing into east and west.

One of the handicap that Malaysia face except corruption, poverty and etc... is racial issue. This has been a hot topic for years until today. It's getting worst with the existence of multimedia technology. Do u know that, Malaysia ever happened racial riot on May 13th 1969. We named it the May 13 Incident

The May 13 Incident is a term for the Sino Malay sectarian violence in Kuala Lumpur (then part of the state of Selangor ), Malaysia which began on May 13, 1969. The riots led to a declaration of a state of national emergency and suspension of Parlimentby the Malaysian government, while the National Operating Concil (NOC or Majlis Gerakan Negara, MAGERAN) was established to temporarily govern the country between 1969 and 1971.

Officially, 196 people were killed between May 13 and July 31 as a result of the riots, although journalists and other observers have stated much higher figures. Other reports at the time suggest over 2,000 were killed by rioters, police and Malaysian Army rangers, mainly in Kuala Lumpur. Many of the dead were quickly buried in unmarked graves in the Kuala Lumpur General Hospital grounds by soldiers of Malaysian Engineers.

The government cited the riots as the main cause of its more aggressive affirmative action policies, such as the New Economic Policy (NEP), after 1969

Immediately following the riot, conspiracy theories about the origin of the riots began swirling. Many Chinese blamed the government, claiming it had intentionally planned the attacks beforehand. To bolster their claims, they cited the fact that the potentially dangerous UMNO rally was allowed to go on, even though the city was on edge after two days of opposition rallies. Although UMNO leaders said none of the armed men bused in to the rally belonged to UMNO, the Chinese countered this by arguing that the violence had not spread from Harun Idris' home but had risen simultaneously in several different areas. The armed Malays were later taken away in army lorries."

The government did not held responsible for an act of cowardice by few men, claimed to be soldiers by the Chinese people, who burnt a few more houses. However, Western observers such as Time suggested that "Whether or not the Malay-controlled police force and emergency government have actually stirred up some of the house-burning, spear-carrying mobs, they seem unwilling to clamp down on them. It was an accusation because the police was largely Malays and controlled by the government”

In 2007, a book — May 13: Declassified Documents on the Malaysian Riots of 1969 by academic, former Democratic Action Party member and former Member of Parliament Kua Kia Soong — was published by Suaram. Based on newly declassified documents at the Public Records Office in London, the book alleges that, contrary to the official account that had blamed the violence on opposition parties, the riot had been intentionally started by the "ascendent state capitalist class" in UMNO as a coup d'etat to topple Tunku Abdul Rahman.

So in another word, Malaysia itself do experience this kind of situation before. So it's not a problem for them to learn from this incident. Knowing that racial issue will end up like this is not settle properly. But the funny thing is the government keep promoting it (Satu Malaysia Program me A.K.A. One Malaysia) but we all didn't really live it out. Racist video is often found on Youtube.com and Facebook. Violence and offending words from ALL RACES are often spoke on the internet itself. It's a very common scenery in the Malaysia nowadays especially in WEST MALAYSIA compared to Borneo Island (East Malaysia) Why would it happen?? I guess the government should figure it out. Or is it their problem. Their conspiracy behind those pathetic drama. Like the church burning incident few months ago.

Recently found this video in Youtube.. What does the government is doing bout it. Does they take any action against them?? or are they encouraging the talk on this so called "Self -Righteous Religious Leader"?

Watch this.... one of the example~ Sorry, only in Malay language. FYI...Am nt condemning Islam. I just wanna portray what she is saying that is destroying the spirit of unity.



After watching this how do u feel? Especially for Christians out there? And what is government doing to counteract this issue? Is it humiliating to the Malays too? Isn't it misleading??

Below is another article about our own Prime Minister, Najib Tun Razak. Adapted from MalaysiaKini (Lazy wanna translate)

主张一个大马却纵容种族主义
前美国驻马大使狠批纳吉虚伪

2011年2月8日 下午 3点00分

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前美国驻马来西亚大使约翰马洛特（John Malott）今天在《亚洲华尔街日报》撰文狠批大马首相纳吉虚伪，因纳吉根本没有认真落实本身提出的“一个大马”理念，反而纵容大马种族主义恶化，造成大马在短短3年流失50万名人才。

约翰马洛特从上世纪90年代中便出任美驻马大使，于1998年卸任后不时对大马政府提出批评。
　
他在一篇题为“大马种族主义的代价”的评论中强调，大马的种族主义现象已令国家经济成长放缓，甚至对外流失人才。

纳吉上任族群宗教事件恶化
　
约翰马洛特指出，纳吉应该照镜自我检讨，是否认真想要落实“一个大马”的目标。

“纳吉2009年上台后，尽管提出了一个亮丽的辞汇，但族群间及宗教间的关系仍紧绷。”
　
“事实上，这比1969年的情况还严重，当时最少有200名巫、华裔因族群纠纷而丧生。”
　
约翰马洛特把这种日益紧张的族群及宗教系列事件，归咎于政府“容忍并在一些事件中透过言行举止来煽动，令族群间出现分化”。
　
提牛头爱国课十字架风波
　
他也提出一些案例，包括纳吉助理哈德柯尔（Hardev Kaur）被指曾在纳吉出席圣诞节开放门户活动时，抗议主办单位的吉隆坡天主教大主教住家不应展示十字架。
　
“柯尔之后澄清她仅是要求，而非指示；这好像任何大马人可拒绝由首相署办公室发出的要求。”

他再举例，因抗议兴都庙迁往本身住宅区而引发的牛头示威风波，内政部长希山慕丁却捍卫这批肇事的居民，另外，国防部长也曾质疑华印裔不愿从军，因缺乏爱国精神。

约翰马洛特也抨击巫统所拥有的《马来西亚前锋报》攻击华裔从政者，并煽动对华裔从政者的憎恨情绪，甚至曾建议应杀掉行动党雪州高级行政议员郭素沁。

3年内共有50万人离马

约翰马洛特总结，这种逐渐恶化的种族主义现象，导致2007年至2009年期间约有50万名国人离马，这比移居海外的专业大马人才数目还多出一倍。

他也指出，纳吉向强烈反对经济改革的右翼组织土著权威组织低头，殊不知停止改革将进一步影响大马竞争力及经济成长放缓，同时意味着更多工程在未竞标下发配给朋党。
　　
约翰马洛特认为，纳吉甚至可能不可相信其政党和官员释放出的这套论述，惟为了捞取更多巫裔选票的支持而放任不理。
　
“当他（纳吉）的政党面对反对党来势汹汹挑战，尤其碰触及种族政策及在经济领域招致的后果时，这无疑成为一项政治便利。”
　
警告种族主义将会影响经济
　
约翰马洛特也警告，当大马拥有的包容逐渐被磨蚀掉，经济也会出现问题，大马若要在2020年发展为先进国，其经济成长每年便须达8%。
　
“要达致这种程度的成长，须有大量的国内外私人界投资及外国资源来支撑，并配合人力技巧的提升及重大的经济转型。不过，恶化的种族及宗教事件将形成阻力。”

约翰马洛特认为，当政府为了政治上的权宜之计而煽动宗教及种族问题，然而这种机会主义的代价便是大马的经济。
　
“这国家的人民将会继续出走，一并带走的是金钱及人才。至于外资，担忧的是族群关系不稳固及缺乏经济改革，也会转投其他国家。”

So what do u think about it? Is our Malaysian government doing anything to stop this issue? Any action taken? Or are they encouraging this " Work of Racism"? Even funding it? Weird isn't it. There more on the net. You can simply find in anywhere.

It's a shame for our nation. Even our own government is so corrupted, what more to say about our nation. Our people? Our lives? Living Standard? The improvement that you all talk about in the news? Our vision? All are bullshit!! Even a simple step you can't even f..king acheive!!

Malaysia, if u wanna wake up and get on your feet. Free from racist issue, you really have to stand up on your feet again. Admitting all your wrong doings, It's not a shame! It's a big step of improvement and a big break through.

All Malaysian out there who is reading this, You know what you must do if you love Malaysia. And you sincerely want to change our nation. Lets bar all rumors about other races and their religion. Is not a wise choice even if you purely want to make a stand for your own race and beliefs. I hope Malaysia will be like what they sang! Satu Malaysia Satu Bangsa.( One Malaysia One Race). Is not hard. You just have to be open minded to accept who and what others belief. Malaysia.. you still have a hope to get through this. Just try your best to be understanding then you can survive through this~

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