A Self Claim United Nation - Malaysia

Whats more upsetting to see comparing to the handicapped people around us is the handicap of our nation. Malaysia named itself as a place like no other. Different races living together in a total landmass of 329,847 square kilometers (127,350 sq mi). Consist of 13 states. Separated by a vast South China Sea. Dividing into east and west.

One of the handicap that Malaysia face except corruption, poverty and etc... is racial issue. This has been a hot topic for years until today. It's getting worst with the existence of multimedia technology. Do u know that, Malaysia ever happened racial riot on May 13th 1969. We named it the May 13 Incident

The May 13 Incident is a term for the Sino Malay sectarian violence in Kuala Lumpur (then part of the state of Selangor ), Malaysia which began on May 13, 1969. The riots led to a declaration of a state of national emergency and suspension of Parlimentby the Malaysian government, while the National Operating Concil (NOC or Majlis Gerakan Negara, MAGERAN) was established to temporarily govern the country between 1969 and 1971.

Officially, 196 people were killed between May 13 and July 31 as a result of the riots, although journalists and other observers have stated much higher figures. Other reports at the time suggest over 2,000 were killed by rioters, police and Malaysian Army rangers, mainly in Kuala Lumpur. Many of the dead were quickly buried in unmarked graves in the Kuala Lumpur General Hospital grounds by soldiers of Malaysian Engineers.

The government cited the riots as the main cause of its more aggressive affirmative action policies, such as the New Economic Policy (NEP), after 1969

Immediately following the riot, conspiracy theories about the origin of the riots began swirling. Many Chinese blamed the government, claiming it had intentionally planned the attacks beforehand. To bolster their claims, they cited the fact that the potentially dangerous UMNO rally was allowed to go on, even though the city was on edge after two days of opposition rallies. Although UMNO leaders said none of the armed men bused in to the rally belonged to UMNO, the Chinese countered this by arguing that the violence had not spread from Harun Idris' home but had risen simultaneously in several different areas. The armed Malays were later taken away in army lorries."

The government did not held responsible for an act of cowardice by few men, claimed to be soldiers by the Chinese people, who burnt a few more houses. However, Western observers such as Time suggested that "Whether or not the Malay-controlled police force and emergency government have actually stirred up some of the house-burning, spear-carrying mobs, they seem unwilling to clamp down on them. It was an accusation because the police was largely Malays and controlled by the government”

In 2007, a book — May 13: Declassified Documents on the Malaysian Riots of 1969 by academic, former Democratic Action Party member and former Member of Parliament Kua Kia Soong — was published by Suaram. Based on newly declassified documents at the Public Records Office in London, the book alleges that, contrary to the official account that had blamed the violence on opposition parties, the riot had been intentionally started by the "ascendent state capitalist class" in UMNO as a coup d'etat to topple Tunku Abdul Rahman.

So in another word, Malaysia itself do experience this kind of situation before. So it's not a problem for them to learn from this incident. Knowing that racial issue will end up like this is not settle properly. But the funny thing is the government keep promoting it (Satu Malaysia Program me A.K.A. One Malaysia) but we all didn't really live it out. Racist video is often found on Youtube.com and Facebook. Violence and offending words from ALL RACES are often spoke on the internet itself. It's a very common scenery in the Malaysia nowadays especially in WEST MALAYSIA compared to Borneo Island (East Malaysia) Why would it happen?? I guess the government should figure it out. Or is it their problem. Their conspiracy behind those pathetic drama. Like the church burning incident few months ago.

Recently found this video in Youtube.. What does the government is doing bout it. Does they take any action against them?? or are they encouraging the talk on this so called "Self -Righteous Religious Leader"?

Watch this.... one of the example~ Sorry, only in Malay language. FYI...Am nt condemning Islam. I just wanna portray what she is saying that is destroying the spirit of unity.



After watching this how do u feel? Especially for Christians out there? And what is government doing to counteract this issue? Is it humiliating to the Malays too? Isn't it misleading??

Below is another article about our own Prime Minister, Najib Tun Razak. Adapted from MalaysiaKini (Lazy wanna translate)

主张一个大马却纵容种族主义
前美国驻马大使狠批纳吉虚伪

2011年2月8日 下午 3点00分

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前美国驻马来西亚大使约翰马洛特（John Malott）今天在《亚洲华尔街日报》撰文狠批大马首相纳吉虚伪，因纳吉根本没有认真落实本身提出的“一个大马”理念，反而纵容大马种族主义恶化，造成大马在短短3年流失50万名人才。

约翰马洛特从上世纪90年代中便出任美驻马大使，于1998年卸任后不时对大马政府提出批评。
　
他在一篇题为“大马种族主义的代价”的评论中强调，大马的种族主义现象已令国家经济成长放缓，甚至对外流失人才。

纳吉上任族群宗教事件恶化
　
约翰马洛特指出，纳吉应该照镜自我检讨，是否认真想要落实“一个大马”的目标。

“纳吉2009年上台后，尽管提出了一个亮丽的辞汇，但族群间及宗教间的关系仍紧绷。”
　
“事实上，这比1969年的情况还严重，当时最少有200名巫、华裔因族群纠纷而丧生。”
　
约翰马洛特把这种日益紧张的族群及宗教系列事件，归咎于政府“容忍并在一些事件中透过言行举止来煽动，令族群间出现分化”。
　
提牛头爱国课十字架风波
　
他也提出一些案例，包括纳吉助理哈德柯尔（Hardev Kaur）被指曾在纳吉出席圣诞节开放门户活动时，抗议主办单位的吉隆坡天主教大主教住家不应展示十字架。
　
“柯尔之后澄清她仅是要求，而非指示；这好像任何大马人可拒绝由首相署办公室发出的要求。”

他再举例，因抗议兴都庙迁往本身住宅区而引发的牛头示威风波，内政部长希山慕丁却捍卫这批肇事的居民，另外，国防部长也曾质疑华印裔不愿从军，因缺乏爱国精神。

约翰马洛特也抨击巫统所拥有的《马来西亚前锋报》攻击华裔从政者，并煽动对华裔从政者的憎恨情绪，甚至曾建议应杀掉行动党雪州高级行政议员郭素沁。

3年内共有50万人离马

约翰马洛特总结，这种逐渐恶化的种族主义现象，导致2007年至2009年期间约有50万名国人离马，这比移居海外的专业大马人才数目还多出一倍。

他也指出，纳吉向强烈反对经济改革的右翼组织土著权威组织低头，殊不知停止改革将进一步影响大马竞争力及经济成长放缓，同时意味着更多工程在未竞标下发配给朋党。
　　
约翰马洛特认为，纳吉甚至可能不可相信其政党和官员释放出的这套论述，惟为了捞取更多巫裔选票的支持而放任不理。
　
“当他（纳吉）的政党面对反对党来势汹汹挑战，尤其碰触及种族政策及在经济领域招致的后果时，这无疑成为一项政治便利。”
　
警告种族主义将会影响经济
　
约翰马洛特也警告，当大马拥有的包容逐渐被磨蚀掉，经济也会出现问题，大马若要在2020年发展为先进国，其经济成长每年便须达8%。
　
“要达致这种程度的成长，须有大量的国内外私人界投资及外国资源来支撑，并配合人力技巧的提升及重大的经济转型。不过，恶化的种族及宗教事件将形成阻力。”

约翰马洛特认为，当政府为了政治上的权宜之计而煽动宗教及种族问题，然而这种机会主义的代价便是大马的经济。
　
“这国家的人民将会继续出走，一并带走的是金钱及人才。至于外资，担忧的是族群关系不稳固及缺乏经济改革，也会转投其他国家。”

So what do u think about it? Is our Malaysian government doing anything to stop this issue? Any action taken? Or are they encouraging this " Work of Racism"? Even funding it? Weird isn't it. There more on the net. You can simply find in anywhere.

It's a shame for our nation. Even our own government is so corrupted, what more to say about our nation. Our people? Our lives? Living Standard? The improvement that you all talk about in the news? Our vision? All are bullshit!! Even a simple step you can't even f..king acheive!!

Malaysia, if u wanna wake up and get on your feet. Free from racist issue, you really have to stand up on your feet again. Admitting all your wrong doings, It's not a shame! It's a big step of improvement and a big break through.

All Malaysian out there who is reading this, You know what you must do if you love Malaysia. And you sincerely want to change our nation. Lets bar all rumors about other races and their religion. Is not a wise choice even if you purely want to make a stand for your own race and beliefs. I hope Malaysia will be like what they sang! Satu Malaysia Satu Bangsa.( One Malaysia One Race). Is not hard. You just have to be open minded to accept who and what others belief. Malaysia.. you still have a hope to get through this. Just try your best to be understanding then you can survive through this~

Hold it Against Me

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A Confession of A Person Who Thought He Was Strong.

3rd July 2010 I ended up in dead end in my life. I can't pursue on my dream as a Agriculturalist. With broken hearts and shattered soul. I was forced to find another way in my life. It was hard as hell. With a lot of nagging from my family. Stress has embrace me until I can't breath. I taught I was gonna die. Without hope and dreams to clink on. Feeling that life is meaningless. No matter how hard i tried. I still can't pursue on. Even worst I wasted 3 years of my teenage life. All of this is due to my results are like crap.

4th July 2010, there is a dim light from afar. Nursing course is introduced into my life. It's never what i wanted. I never taught of it. And i truly despised it. Thinking that as a nurse i will end up in a hospital for the rest of my life. In the other hand, I taught of leaving home. It's always what i wanted. I wanna leave my parents, siblings. i wanted to escape them. Hoping for a quieter life, a calmer life. To start a new. To a place where I have to start again. I made my choice. i decided to leave.

8th July 2010. I flew to a place so much stranger to me. I was alone. Looking forward to my new campus life. Hoping to make new friends. Hoping to be independent. I was free at last! Well, i really got what i wanted. people around me kept asking why do I chose this course. i told them various reason which are untrue. Hiding around the bushes. Wanting no one to know more about me.

I have to do everything on my own. I travel around alone. Eat alone. Worked alone. Study alone. No one to nag around. No one to discipline me. No one to bust into my room without knocking. No shouting from my parents neither my siblings. I got all the things I wanted all these years. No one to nag me when i smoke and when i drink until i was so drunk and puke everywhere. Young people all around me. Fooling and joking around. I thought this is life. This is what i always wanted. To be free. To be independence. I really love it that time. I really do. Carefree life... Only towards my study.

Until.....

1 October 2010. I finished my semester 1 theory course. Practical is a must for us in every semester. I was being sent to Batu Pahat, Johor. I got to know more about what is Nursing is all about. and in the same time to do hands on work rather than just sitting in my classroom listening or sleeping. No more 100 percent based on text books and lectures.

As soon we arrived. We are welcome warmly by my friend's mother. She is very friendly. She brought us to a lot of place. Sight seeing, beach and etc. But sadly, his son was admited into the hospital as soon da next day due to high fever. Every night as soon after work she will sleep beside his bed. But not long after that he was admitted into ICU. Still the same, She still visit him, praying. Hoping her son will get well soon. I was always peeking at a corner. Looking at the situation. Honestly I was touched.


In the ward there is a middle age aunty. Her name was Lim Ah Moi. 54 of age. Suffered in a tragic accident on the highway. She was with her father during the accident. She suffered form burns and multiple bone fractures. She was admited during 16th August. She is only able to speak Hokkien. No other language. Not long after that. She is put under my care. I took care of her daily ADL. Not long after that, our bond grown stronger. I really do love to talk to her. Although she is always very noisy and naggy. I really treat her like my aunt. They really look alike. I really don't want this tragic accident to happen in either one of my family members.

If not mistaken it was Thursday~ While I was on duty, one of the patient was in an emergency situation. Her pulse is droping drastically. CPR is preformed immediately. Adrenaline is administered. Doctors are trying hard to resurrect her. After a few minutes, she was pronounce dead. That is the first time I saw person pass away. Honestly, I take it lightly. Telling myself that may be she is already in a critical stage. She contracted liver cancer.

Until one day. After 2 weeks, a patient was admitted into the ward. He met an accident. He is in a coma. Everything was fine. Blood pressure. Everything. Everything is in perfect order. Only waiting for him to wake up. All his family member was all around his bed praying for him. Looking forward for him to wake up. His childrens, wife and relatives always check in on time to visit him during visiting hour. After a few days, without any warning or what so ever. His pulse drop drastically. Doctors rushed into the ward. In the end is still.....I can hear all the family's weeping from a far. It touch my heart. At this point of time, all memories came back to me, I can still remember how my mother has to wake up in the middle of the night to make sure my tempreture is under control every time when I fever. How she took care of our needs. How she worked hard for us during our financial crisis. All the sweat and blood that she has to shed while taking care of us. At this point of time. My emotion was too stirred up. I can't focus on my work. But i still manage to control my emotion to preform all procedures. Since after that, I was so afraid that i might loose all my patient. Not to say my family members.

after 3 weeks of practical. Finally it is coming to an end. All those love and care that i has poured out it has never gone to waste. Most of the patient are well and had left the hospital after the recovery of their illness... Am glad about it. About the aunty which i mention. She wad also sent to a nursing home. I can still remember her smile when i carry her into her wheel chair when i send her off. I surely gonna miss her. At this point of time. I can still how my aunty treat me when i was young. Her smile is my encouragement in my daily life. The pocket money that she use to give us every morning. He stories that she use to tell us. The jokes that she made me and the rest of my siblings laugh so hard. The care that she gave me when I was injured with sever bleeding on my toes when my parents are away on church mission. Although she always get angry out of nothing at all. But her smile has covered all her imperfect.

In my clinical posting. I somehow realise how much my family loves me. My aunt, my grandparents, my mum, my dad and my siblings. The love and care that they has showered on me. Why can't i see it?! Until i was far away from my home and i have to learn it form a hospital?! Why am i so ignorant?! Until today, I still can't answer this question. I kept on telling that may be this is a teenagers life. U have to experience it in order to learn from it. I kept quiet about it. It will be a little embarrassing if i had tell them. Chinese what~ bin poi pang beh lok~

Until recently, my dad came to Melacca on a conference. I met him up on Wednesday as it is Thaipusam. I spend 4 days and 3 night together. Really had enjoy myself. I never felt so close to my dad before. As if suddently i can feel what he feel. Every night when his asleep, I would get up and look at him. I realise he is getting older than I can remember. the scar that is on his hand, i can still remember how does it happened. It is still so clear in my memories. the anger that is in his eyes and now is so much calmer~ I tried to hold back my feeling after thinking how long will he still be around us. I really wonder hard.


Yesterday, he has went back home. After sending off his flight. First time in my life, I missed him so much. I missed everyone of u guys back home. How i wish I can be there now. I miss you all. I really do. Please forgive me for all the wrong things that I have done. For making the decision to leave home. I really miss u guys. Lastly I wanted to say I love u guys so much! I miss how u guys shout and making all sorts of commotion. Looking forward for Jun to go home once again~